Who watches Spongebob at 7 in the morning? Well aside from me ;p. Sorry for the Betty Page overload going on in my page. However one can never get enough of her. Anyway. So in a week or so I will be on my way back to DC and I don't really know who reads this, but since my laptop crashed *sad I know* I probably wont be able to update this in a while, not like I dont slack already on updating :D

Anyways I think Im gonna go make me a cup of chai and get things done today and update later if something interesting happens ;D

Have a good day

Empty house..

Well its not entirely empty. It just feels that way. While the husband deploys to that place across the ocean [*insert mean face here*], I've decided I'm going to move back home [D.C.] meaning I'm going to stay at my mother's in the basement. I couldn't keep my dogs because it just wasn't fair to them to be locked up in the house most of the time. Jack found a great home and I was left with Coco. Well thanks to the bitch downstairs I had to find her a home sooner than expected. I dropped her off last night at her new home and I'm happy to say I found her the perfect home with a beautiful family that fell in love with her the moment she walked in.

...WTF?! I just heard my trash can open..oh yeah I have this sensorish trash can that opens on its own, however there is nobody in the house but moi. GHOST?! ....

So now I'm sitting here, with fall out on pause..my laptop crashed...missing my dogs and just trying to avoid a panic attack..too much going on in my head..

So..this month I have lost...

* My best friend, who despite being a part time jerk, was my full time shoulder to lean on...*poof* gone.

* My precious dogs...[well not really lost, it was what was best for them]

* The excitement I had to go back home *caused by losing the best friend*

* My ambition..

I'm trying to keep a positive mind and keep repeating myself Let It Be and that things will eventually fall back into place on its own...

WELL..I SAID I WAS TRYING...

Fabulously Slacking.

You know, I should be finishing cleaning my closet. Well the house over all, but I feel like today is Sunday. Mind you, I already made an ass of myself earlier today. I texted my friend back home, telling him to have fun at the Redskins game...

ITS NOT TIL TOMORROW!...*smacks head*

I look at my cell and voila! its SATURDAY...I'm glad that didn't happened in person. I don't know about you, but I can't recover from that.

Aside from that little "issue" hehe..I'm in great spirits. Trying to keep the smile going and mind busy. My new life motto that I keep hearing inside my head is helping me out A LOT. Just let it be. One of my favorite songs too by the way.

OOOH..I got a hold of poems by Hafiz of Persia. I'm in love! His poems are about god and how great he is, which is great though I'm not really a religious person, but he also has some poems where you feel he is having a conversation with you or demanding you to just look at the sunshine and smile. Totally helpful to me at the moment..so check him out.

OK..back to cleaning I go.

xOx.

Madam V.

Major Cuteness!

I want this cuteness to sing on my birthday!

A Little Venting...

People say friendship is the most precious treasure someone can have. Is that so? How is it then that when situations go wrong, one is easily replaced by another? Why do we tend to forget who has been there through the good and the bad? Nobody ever seems to care, while others try to make amends, they get shut up down immediately. Its not who you have known the longest, its who's been there when the rest of the world walked out. I'm not holding any grudges. Three weeks I was devastated with the idea of going to Spain for an entire year. As much as I like that idea, that would be letting my demons win and running away from my problems. Today, I tried to break the ice but was unsuccessful and got a reality check, I am no longer an important character in that person's life story. Got replace by someone else and that's alright. As the character from one of my favorite movies once said "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn" and as I said today to myself over and over shit happens..now see if I still give a damn, because I will NOT be there as I had always been. Its time to look out for myself and work on myself. Nobody's love is greater than the love you have for yourself. I'm done talking about that issue. SO MOVING ON..while I was googling lol I came across a picture that today reminded me of my dear friend Slacker Chic so babe this picture is for you! haha..mean while I shall come up with ideas to post...oh and thanks for letting me vent thats if anyone reads my nonsense ;p

its like this and like that.

Ignore the title, its completely random. I couldn't think of a name so whatever. Anyways I'm on a block that I just can't concentrate or think straight. Its like I'm losing it. I don't know what is wrong. Well aside from anxiously waiting for Wednesday night, I'm not looking forward of being stuck in a car for 7 hours just to make it home on time for breakfast which at the same time is wonderful hehe. well I guess I better start packing and deciding what stuff to take home with me. oh joy.

la la la

In a much better mood than yesterday =] I will get things done today and eventually the FedEx guy will show up with my new phone meanwhile I will be playing some xbox, trying to beat Prototype, I think Im half way through, meanwhile I have this picture that totally made my day =] and if you are a girl gamer you will like it too =]